So you just stand there all like

.. okay :(

LOL i hella do that -kgayle

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so here this is what it is. NATURALLY i am a caring and nurturing person. I actually give a shit about how others feel i love my family, my friends and my patients.

FAMILY: everyone knows that my mom and i are the breadwinners of the family. My moms income alone is not enough to feed all the mouths of this household, pay the bills, and allowance to the unemployed in the house. Even with my job now i feel like i am living from payheck to paycheck. I give my mom money every paycheck plus i buy groceries and other necessities for the house. I try to help out financially any way i can. I also have my student loans that are killing me and im struggling to pay. I have credit cards from when i was in college and im slowly trying to get rid of them. People think jus cuz im a nurse im ballin outta control. If they only fucking knew what i ahd to go through to get to where i am today and how im financially struggling now bcuz i got to where i am today. Im not selfish with my money especially when it comes to my fmaily and the people i love. If my brothers want something i will buy it for them and not tell them i was saving that money for myself so i can buy me a new fit or a new purse or something i have had my eye on for a while…i will put my wants aside for my brothers bcuz i know that they deserve nice things too. I try n not buy stuff for myself so i can give my mom a little more than i usually do each month bcuz i know she works so fucking hard for our family. It just hurts me sometimes when my mom has to talk money to me. I know she doesnt mean to but sometimes it makes me feel unappreciated for what i already do for our family. I knw that shes stressed and its a burden for her but i keep telling her that if i could i would give her more tahn i already do. I am 24 years old and i need to get myself out of my debt too….how i wish i didnt have to live paycheck to paycheck….

FRIENDS: i believe in qaulity of friendships not quantity. I have a handful of friends i can call my best friends and close friends. If those who know me I will always tell you how i feel regardless of how mean or fucked up it is. isnt that what a real friend is anyways? they tell u what YOU NEED TO HEAR, not what u want? anyways, my friends and i all have had our fights but only true friends will see past that. a true friend will be there even if he/she dont like your man or girl, and she will tell you straight up that the relationship she has with u has nothing to do with your boyfriend or girlfriend…a real friend will confront you, will support you and will not forget you for all the times you called them crying becasue of family issues, failure, and heartache…a true friend does not keep tabs of your wrongs..but accepts you for who you are who you are with and understands you..a true friend will not let others TALK SHIT ABOUT YOU.they will actually have your back because they know who you really are instead of having someone else be the judge of their character…really tho think about it…it takes 2 to make a friendship work….i have best friends who i dont have to talk to everyday but when we do talk its like where we just left off, we catch up where we left off and there is no awkwardness..i dont hold grudges i get over them, i keep those who keep close to me, i put effort in those who do the same….basically my friendship is simple as this…input=output

PATIENTS: i am 24 years old and i am a RN. I am proud to call myself a nurse bcuz i go to work 4-5 days a week doing what i do best and ALWAYS giving my ALL. although this is not the type of nursing care i want to do i still give it my best. Most people may think working at a nursing home is easy and all you do is pass meds. WRONG!!!!!!! my position at my job is more than that..i do admissions, im secretary for the whole facility past 830pm, i folllow up with MDs, pass meds, do tx, and attend to families questions and needs, and i also handle changes of condition for almost 25 patients, plus i do charting on almost all my patients. I get so tired so run down so overworked. I swear there are 2 other nurses on the floor but families always come to me!!! as permanent med pass nurse now my duty is to focus on passing meds but for some reason im still doing all the duties above. belive me i do ask for help but hardly ever is that rendered!!!! cant you guys see that im strssed over here? help please? ughh….i just dont know….one thing i know is that i will not sacrifice quality care just because i dont get help and i have hella shit to do…if i will get off work late then fine i will get off work late…i would rather get off work late than risk my patients life and my license…at least my patients and their families appreciate me….

its my day off…im exhausted emotionally and physically..

to everyone who gives a shit about me..please dont take my kindness, my love, my friendship for granted bcuz we all know that i have given u my all through thick and thin…and behind the mean bitchy attitude only the ones who really love me and know me know that im just a sweet, loving, silly, sensitive lady…..

*deeeeeeep breath* vented……thank u tumblr

<3,

kgayle